wordless*

就算我们之间有什么问题

依然想念着你 虽然被放弃

虽然我愿意

就算我们之间有什么难题

黑夜我还想着 你心碎人孤寂

虽然我愿意

I don't know who am I anymore.

I slowly found myself isn't the past me anymore.

I don't know what happen to me.

Even now, I'm stucked and I don't know what to do again.

Previous updates♡

Here goes the update of the pictures for the Wedding I mention in my previous post.
Happy Wedd!!

♡♡

The wedding rings.. ♡


The Newly Wedd.. (=

The Morning Tea Ceremony..

(Doing her makeup and hairstyle) (=

Getting ready for makeups and hairstyling. It was early dawn 5am!

We had to get up for the preparation of the wedding. Everyone was busy but at least, we managed to rushed in time for every surprise.

Isn't she pretty and sweet? I'm her makeup artist for the day doing her bridal makeup and hairstyle for her whole wedding also due that I've learnt makeup in school. It wasn't so thick as she doesn't wanna look fake and too fair.

Look! She's so happy. LOl.

On the way to her husband house for ceremony, it rains! However it doesn't spoil the happy mood of everyone (= The candid shot was so random! nice!

The sisters of the bride and our AngBaos (=
Ai hoon was not in the pictures, she taking some of the pics.
I was tired yea, can see from my face.
I've done 4pairs of eyebrow trimming (including the bride) the night before.
It was so strainting for my eyes. =_=

We were asked to wear this to represent our status as brides'maids

Our cam-whorings time~ (left to right :Jie Bing, Me,Ai hoon,Sophia)

Xin Tian , Sophia and Jie Bing.

A random hairstyle I helped Xin Tian to make while the bride is taking her rest. The hair below was extension! Can you spot any difference?

Xin Tian and me

The Dinner~

Arrived at the Chalet where they have their Wedding Dinner..
New Hairstyle and makeup again done by me. Nice? Lightings wasn't very clear to show but it looks nicer on the night with the lights glazing on her cause I add the sparkling diamond powder as her eyeshadow. Hehehe. So satisfied! (click on the pic to enlarge it )
And and and , I love her Wedding Gown!! (;

The soleminsation of the wedding where they both said " Yes, I do..."

The Exchange Of the Rings... Was announced husband and wife..

Our cam-whore time again! We was sitting at the swing bench nearby feeding the mosquitos over there. Irritating!~

Sophia and me

Me and Xin Tian

The cake..

♡Loving Always..♡

LOL.

After that Xin Tian , Sophia , Jie Bing and me went over to a bench at the side start playing games. 5-10 and direction.
That wasn't all we had drank, not even an hour, we already drank 10++ cans of Caslsberg.
Xin Tian was damn high la and Sophia took one pic of her being sooo Unglam..
Due to her too unglam-ness, She refused to let me post on blog. Hahah.
Jie Bing was worse, as long period of time didn't drink alcohol , she got drunk already upon the first two cans. LOL. She was cute la! (=

Surprised!!~ The sweet little bride.

To: Mr & Mrs Lau

Hope you have a wonderful and memorial day on your wedding.
May you be blissful and happiness for the rest of your life.
Stay happy always for love always in your heart!

Are we? Are we not?

In this lonely night, with only computer, music and the cold breeze along outside my window accompany me walk through this difficult time.

Looks like it's gonna rain soon.

" Are we? Or are we not? "

This question in my mind makes me crazy.

Keep thinking this question for million , zillion times.

Are you sure this is your decision?

But why do I feel that you are so far away?

Baby, I just wish you to know, every night.. I couldn't help missing you so much. Once I think of you, tears just come down straight uncontrollable.

How I wish we could be like last time and nothing had happened.
But... I know it's impossible.

Knowing in order to be with you, I had to share my place in your heart with someone else.
Maybe you will never know how I feel for you.

Baby, I understand you are busy with your stuffs and that you won't even have a single time for me however, I don't want you to spend a lot time on me. I just want you to take a little of your time, look into my eyes , a pat on my head and tell me all my efforts for you aren't wasted and that you sense my love.

Will this small wish of mine be fulfil?

I misses the day we happily together, hand-in-hand chatting walking home, walking in the middle of the night to buy stuffs and all our sweet sms-es.

Don't tell me all my effort waiting and hanging on during the CNY is all a waste.

Unforgettable the way you said "I'm gonna get you a DS lite after getting my pay so you can play while travelling. " and " I open a chalet and sponsor everything on your birthday just for you."

If only we can be back like last time so loving, I would rather give up all those monetary stuffs just for you to come back to me...love me like you do previously.

Don't ask me why I love you so much for this is how much I love you and willing to do for you..

Rather bad news or gd news = Contridicting

Today wasn't a Gd day for me.

I was vomiting so many times and I don't know why. My stomach just feel bloated as if I ate too much food when I actually not. *Eeks..

Today...

I have been wondering bout the superficial and internal of a person.
This moment he maybe Gd, and that moment he maybe not.
Many things can be predicted by calculations or technology but, humans heart can never be predict.

I found out many things today that gave me a thousands reasons for heartache. )''=

Things you never realise I was secretly, quietly, gently and consciously planning and doing it for you.
Only what you do, might be comparing the external beauty of lady and forget about inner beauty.
I'm not saying arrogantly that I have pretty much inner beauty,

but,....

It's not easy to find someone will do things willingly and unconditionally.
Things when you may not realise when I'm around but things that you will realise when I'm gone.
And that you may regret or moving on...


Baby I misses the past YOU badly. )=

A change will be good

Things ain't any better. Neither it will be like the past anymore.

I went to help up for a bridal makeup for a friend's wedding few days ago.
It was busy the whole day, well, still it couldn't shake him outta' my mind yet.
The day was fun loving with the new friends I met there. They were great girls ~♡


However, the scene where they exchange rings and promises during the solemnisation was so touching and I almost cry out cos' think of him. But, "It's pointless to think, Wendy." I told myself. (Taken a deep breath and clapped for the newly wed.)



some 1/10 photos taken that day:

Some more photos coming up...

I decide a change maybe good.



So at least you can spend more time on dolling up dressing up than thinking of the sad moments.



I want to dye my hair black again.

I know it sounds crazy but as time goes, I'm getting more frustrated with this hair. It's getting more gold and it reminds me of him.



Firstly I dye this hair when break up the previous time for a change. He was there, sitting next to me, accompany me , watching me getting my hair done for few hrs thou wasn't the whole process but still meaningful to me.



Now for myself , I want it to be black again.



I know it's not healthy but however my hair looks more weak with this colour.



I'm a flicker-minded person.



I change decision faster than you can imagine but what I want I will go for it.

Guess, he's having some one in mind.

I got this strong feelings and some one not from Singapore, some one met in the competition.

Well, should trya' stop thinking all these and stop wondering things bout him. )=

Emo Wendy

I love you still ♡ )=

Looking back the sms-es you sent me.

So loving, couldn't forget how we get to know one another in the first place.

How we met and how we chatted in msn. How you get my number and tease me. From before you went in army until now already posted out.


I'm always there supporting and recognising your hard work and endless effort regardless big or small issues.


Everything was still so clear inside my mind. Each and every part. After the break up, every night I couldn't sleep. I realised, it's not the effect that I'm having insomnia. It's all because you are not by my side. I'm so used to hug you to sleep, kisses on your lips, pat you to sleep and sniffing you from your back.


Even every of our disagreement or arguments memorial to me. 'Cause I know at the end of the time , you are still my only Loves.


I admit we keep quarrel but think from another way, we are just trying to accept and understand each other. This shows concern as well.


In my whole life, seriously I've never thought of being with someone that joins lion dance and committed so much in lion dance. My mind set was that lion dance are for childish and immature 'ah bengs' (my apologies if i offend anyone with my perception). However,YOU make me realised that I was wrong, YOU make me understand your passion for lion dance, respect your interest and even make me love watching you perform every time. I learn to watch and know more about lion dance all because of YOU.


For me, it's a path that I have never had before in my life. It's not just a love of me and you but also understanding your interest , your favourite and people around you.


Before you came into my life, I never know that I could love someone like this and put in some much effort in changing and tolerating.


As far as I know, previously I was someone harsh, impulsive, wilful, stubborn, attitude (worse) ,arrogant and over-powering in relationship. What I want ,I will certainly go for it for I only think about myself not others' feeling.


You make me learn to give up choices and stubbornness for the one you love, learn to appreciate and do things that I've never done for a bf.


Though I may not be your perfect gf, listen to what you say all the time but think back I certainly support you in whatever you do.


Giving up all my time just to see you , accompany you no matter it's just a few hours of watching you while training for your lion dance from far. I dint make a noise at all.


Unlike some other girl ,the things that I can only give you cannot be measure by monetary wise. I admit I not someone rich.At most I can only treat you eat in some places in special occasion. Probably, my effort was on the small but heart warming stuffs that one might not realise but also came from every part of concern from my heart.


To you: I know you hate my attitude , my temper. Everyone in this world has attitude and temper however is all because of CONCERN. Looking back , I'm not a Gd gf to you but I'm already trying my best for these 5months. I haven give up inspite all the arguments, why must you give up where some one is willing to accompany walk through the obstacles in life.?


To friends out there: For many friends out there, thanks for being there for me and all the encouragement that you guys gave me. I believe it takes time. I will grow braver as time goes ..

眼泪笑了

比想象中更痛

你真的没回头

我命令眼泪不许失控

回忆不跟你走 都挤在我心中

我就有责任让它值得被珍重

*谢谢你曾让我难过

谢谢我没有想太多

当爱情左盼右顾的时候

我眼泪都笑了

谁还想哭呢

再勇敢的站着

找回光和热面

对你的时候 我不会舍不得

因为你已是过客

因为路有些曲折是美的

心碎成了沙漠

就快开凿绿洲

我没有时间

不知所措

你温柔的双手 本就不属于我

又何必在乎它以后属于谁呢

*

你眼泪都笑了
谁还会哭呢
来不及完美的 就唱首骊歌
想起你的时候
我不是卑微的
反而我没有遗憾
因为我已爱过你深深的

It's only memories

*Wash off*

It's the end of the story of 04.02.08 .

I admit I have strong instinct. I can predict on this some how true.

The characteristic of scopio never fails me.


Feeling fades.

Short conversation.

I don't know what else to say though.


I'll move on.

I'll get better in time.

I believe time will wash it off.

When the time has arrive, I know I have forget it and leave everything in the past.


Maybe somehow, I blamed it on myself.

Probably I'm not that understanding at all.

Probably I really am.


I'll let u go.



放生 - 关心研

热情淡了吗 想抽身了吗
聊电话也泄气了吗


旧承诺应不假 却忍不到闷吧
惦记当天处处鲜花互缠着到老 不死都疲劳
还是跟你痛快结束

为承诺守得到 拍拖都变义务
没法稀罕你这情操
去吧 犹如候鸟飞走吧

未奢想你迷途知返
自由来换失恋那代价
你真的相信值得吗

*是我太过爱你 愿意放生你
无谓你抱阵我也这么的晦气
我亦算知丑 无谓强迫你
难道要我对着你句句要生要死

就当爱错了你 就当放生你
无谓你说话里有这么多怨气
我就放开手 无谓再忍你

明白放过你是放过自己这个道理 ...

Insomnia

Again.. I'm wandering aimlessly in this wee hours at 5:40am, surfing on some online fashion clothes sprees. Also, have been chatting with some friends in msn earlier.

I'm having insomnia lately.
Don't ask me why. I don't know why.
Probably I'm used to late nights, late hangouts.
I might just turn into a panda if this continue..
And may be.... some help of the cough syrup will solve it.
(I'm starting my emo-ing again.)

I'm so damn fuking bored now.
Nothing for me to do. The TV show was so ages already.
Dint catch my attention.

It's been 4 days.
These past 4 days I dint really contact with baby.
Frankly speaking, I dint miss him so much.
Seriously, I got this uncommunicative feeling about our relationship.
I have no idea why suddenly i felt this way.
It's so weird.
I don't know what to say.


Are we fading?


I don't know.
I don't wanna think so much.
I have little too much ' Don't know(s) '
Too much thoughts going through my mind in this lonesome night.
My mind is so not active still. Oh ,That's terrible. =_="

Sakae Sushi & nicely blend with the taste of dark mocha coffee. ♡

Yesterday, woke up in the noon.
Sleep as late as I can, due to no class for me yesterday.

Brushing my teeth and washing my face usual after woke up.*YAWNS*
Nothing pretty much to do.

Was walking around in my house like an idiot. Aimlessly.
Suddenly , a 'long-time extinct' idea pop up my mind.
It was to sweep the floor and mop the floor.
Don't know why I have this sudden idea of doing it, but it just came upon my mind.

Before getting everything start, my uncle suddenly requested a hair cut done by me.
For your info, he hasn't been to any salon ever since the first time I cut his hair.
I always cut according to his preference so maybe somehow , he prefer to let me cut his hair ever since.
*Laughs*

After finished cutting, as expected. I admit that I let lazy bugs climbed upon me.
Nevertheless, putting away the 'long-time existed' idea away was easy.


Instead, I went out with my sister and a friend for a lunch at Sakae Sushi in Airport.
Just not long ago after the lunch, baby called from KL. Telling me that he's safe over there and will be busy for the past few days due to training so he won't be calling back til I join him at Genting on Friday.

Well, good choice though but I guess I'll be missing him more as well. At least he dint have to spend too much on the Hp bills.



Splendid lunch concluded. Left for Starbucks for that.
Sitting down at a corner , relaxing and enjoy the great taste of my dark mocha frappcupino.

Sakae Sushi (All finished up!) LOL

Wei bin

My sis

Me (Without much makeup except makeup base and macasra)

Starbucks

Had a short chat on phone with Anqi today. Looks like I did really missed out something ''classic'' that day for not going out with her and Sherry.

*Hmm, Should spend the days going out with more girl friends when baby wasn't around.*

Well,last night I completed drawing the family portrait of Winnie the pooh in one of my brother's room's wall. Few months ago, it was only Winnie and now , after the spending 3-4 hours *Tada!*

The family of Winnie The Pooh!

(Click on the picture to zoom in)

* Alert for people who wearing colored-contact lens.*

By the way, for people out there who wear whatever colored-contacts lens. Beware of the infections occurring if you don't take good care of your eyes.

I'm not trying to discourage people from buying colored- contact lens but just some reminder of precaution is concern. Well, I will probably still get myself a pair but of cause I will take precaution upon wearing (=

I was considering buying some colored- contact lens but hesitated when a news on TV caught my attention of broadcasting some interviews by doctor for eye infection regarding colored-contact lens.

Currently, researches result that many people from countries like Japan, Korea and Taiwan(where the colored-contact lens are import from) got some serious eye infection by wearing colored-contact lens and some may even cause blindness to victims.

So fellows, please take note of the size of the contact lens, some may not suits the eyes as it may be slightly bigger than the pupils of your eyes causes cuts on your eye balls and also take note of the time of wearing should not be over 6 hours.

Cleanliness and hygiene purpose should be well-taken for not causing infections.
I believe everyone wants to have a bigger sparkling eyes, on the other hand, precaution is important as well to protect your eyes. Let's wear contact lens in a safer way!