I think I've eaten too much heaty food. My body is so heaty and warm now. I always feel so hot, sticky and sweating even inside the room with fan blowing directly at me.
Recently weather is very bad too. No fresh cooling air. *Tsk! Makes me feeling so frustrated.
Yesterday went to visit my Chinese physical doctor. Waited damn long. Book time 10.30am - 11am reached there take the queue number ended up waiting from 10.45am to 2pm +! Damn 3hours of waiting. No choice, Who asked the Chinese doctor so famous,the queue waiting to see her is so long.
When it's my turn, i went in. I was amazed by how every time she just uses her fingers to test my pulse and she knows everything from inside-out of my body.
She said that BB Eden's size is just nice now and he's doing very well inside. Not too big and not too small. Average size and she's quite amazed because since I dint have to work, normally pregnant woman staying at home will just eat and sleep ,thus baby will be growing too big but mine is OK.
Of cause, I did went for walk walk once or twice every week for few hours.
Another thing was because from young , I have a very sensitive nose; my nose is a bit crooked. My nose easily get infection. This is call 鼻痘炎。It's very very common. I think most of the people will realize they have it too after consult a 中医. She warned me to refrain from drinking ice/cold water. Only allow me to drink warm water. If I drink too much cold drinks, the flesh by the side of my nostrils will swollen and I will have difficulty of breathing sometimes.
These may affect BB Eden future growing as well. It may affect his future studies progress, his skin alleges and if come to very very serious come to worse , might even stop breathing while sleeping.
I dint follow the instructions because I really can't stand the heat inside my body. I'm feeling so hot everyday. Really very uncomfortable and hard to resist. So mommies, must take note of this! Don't drink too much/ eat too much cold beverages/food.
And because I dint follow, I get my 'karma'. Now I'm turning even more frustrated with blocked nose of the 2 nostrils ,sore throat and cough. *Tsk! *Sigh*
Now just hopes these faster goes away and I'll be good drink only WARM WATER.
Thursday, October 07, 2010
Random
We watched this movie. I personally think it's nice and interesting. Some parts are kinda exciting as well. It's recommended! You guys should watch it!Tuesday, was babyhubby's off!
He had his driving practical at BBDC in the morning and after that he accompanied me to Cuppage for my prenatal massage. Woot! Shiok!
Later on, we met up with xiaoboy and his wifey for walked, dinner and watch movie.
We had our dinner at Billy Bombers and the quantity of the food there is according to the America size. It's really very fillings!
After that we decided to take Peektures from Pretty in Toyko.
I don't take those photos as much with babyhubby because he doesn't like it that much as I do, but this time round, for my sake, he agreed.
Thanks Baby!!
Too long never use the machines already abit blur sotong now. I chose the wrong size and it become so small. ZZZz
Overall, I still love it a lot! Especially one of the big one with BB Eden. The smiley face is BB Eden and the 2 icon beside is actually "So cute!" & " Hello!"
So in love with that picture. Keep looking at it and smiling to myself because there's BB Eden inside with us.
I really feel so happiness! :D
After the movie, we all felt so restless and tired already. We did thought of going somewhere else to chill but I guess all of us cannot take it already so we went home.
I wish more time with babyhubby. He's always busy working and tired after daily work.
I love family outings but it seems to have always end so fast every time. ):
Monday, October 04, 2010
Family gathering 3 oct
Yesterday had a family dinner together with my parents, brother, sister-in-law, baby Cerys ,their maid, my sister and her boyfriend. I love family gatherings! We always talk about the past and the funny things we used to do and laugh about.
We walked around in Tampines One to look for baby stuffs. Brother and his family is going for a small family trip to Bangkok on the Nov. They have to gather some cold clothing wear for BB Cerys. Oh! She's so adorable and chubby!! I shall post her photos next time when I take photos with her! Nowadays, she loves sticking with me and keep searching for me this 姑姑! She will always looked at me and rubbed my tummy and said" baby!" So cute!
We had our dinner at F.I.S.H.
It's very packed everywhere during that hours but luckily last minute we still able to find a dining place.
Forgot to took pictures of the food but anyway, it's delicious.
I got these 2 cakes for desserts. They look great and no doubt , they tasted heavenly as well!
We love the Raspberry Eruption more as it's not too sweet.
Yummy! Let's have more family outings!!
I believe BB Eden loves family gathering as much as I do too and he definitely loves all the delicious food! As I was eating, BB Eden keep kicking and moving inside me. Love you so much my little boy!
Later on at night, met up with babyhubby and his friends for a chill at Clarke Quay. We went to a Caucasian pub named The pump pub or something like that . There's live band and also DJs for trance & house music. Quite relaxing place.
I had a glass of red wine. It's been so long ever since I ever touches red wine. Woo! Miss it! LOL.
Reached home and have a nice rest then.
We walked around in Tampines One to look for baby stuffs. Brother and his family is going for a small family trip to Bangkok on the Nov. They have to gather some cold clothing wear for BB Cerys. Oh! She's so adorable and chubby!! I shall post her photos next time when I take photos with her! Nowadays, she loves sticking with me and keep searching for me this 姑姑! She will always looked at me and rubbed my tummy and said" baby!" So cute!
We had our dinner at F.I.S.H.
It's very packed everywhere during that hours but luckily last minute we still able to find a dining place.
Forgot to took pictures of the food but anyway, it's delicious.
I got these 2 cakes for desserts. They look great and no doubt , they tasted heavenly as well!
We love the Raspberry Eruption more as it's not too sweet.
Yummy! Let's have more family outings!!I believe BB Eden loves family gathering as much as I do too and he definitely loves all the delicious food! As I was eating, BB Eden keep kicking and moving inside me. Love you so much my little boy!
Later on at night, met up with babyhubby and his friends for a chill at Clarke Quay. We went to a Caucasian pub named The pump pub or something like that . There's live band and also DJs for trance & house music. Quite relaxing place.
I had a glass of red wine. It's been so long ever since I ever touches red wine. Woo! Miss it! LOL.
Reached home and have a nice rest then.
2nd oct 2010, Saturday
Had a advance celebration for Rebecca's 22nd Birthday at Town. Sakura Buffet, below Club Ratchada. There's so many different kinds of food. All of us were so excited when it comes to the food taking. You can see us all scattered around to gather our food. Seriously, we all ate damn full!
Look at the food on our table! These were just the starter only. There's more. Ice cream , fruits, cakes, tarts, desserts and pudding. I think it's quite worth it, each person $31.05 but be sure you can eat a lot , if not it's a loss.Celebrating Rebecca's 22nd Birthday!
As we took out the cake, She glad but later on she sighed and look at the cake with the "I-don't-think-we-can-finish-the-cake-look." LOL!
*Scratching her head.* "I can't eat anymore!!!"
We sang her a super loud Happy Birthday song. As if the whole restaurant only left us. Happy Birthday Rebecca! Hope you enjoy yourself very much!!
So sweet!
Oh! I'm so fattttt!
We had a good time chatting and laughing. Laughing at some particular things. It really makes me go mad just by laughing.
BB Eden was so active and keep moving around. I think it's due to the vibrations of the bass there. Babies hear and feel our voice by vibrations as well.
I made a comments by saying, BB Eden must be dancing inside.
Rebecca feel my tummy and BB Eden kicked/ poked her twice!
I love my BB boy! You're so adorable! How mummy hopes to see and snuggle you in my arms!
Reached home at 3 am. Overall , it was a wonderful event. :D
Friday, October 01, 2010
Wondering
Today(30/09) I went for my gynae appt and had a scan.
BB Eden is so naughty, he kicked as my gynae is scanning my tummy.
He probably doesn't like the way he's being pressed and disturbed.
Everything went out fine. Gynae said that now the only thing is to wait for baby to grow bigger.
I went from 55kg in 14 Sept to 57.5kg today. Haa. So heavy!
I keep afraid that I might go over weight. Always asked my gynae is BB Eden overweight, but sad to say, Gynae said I'm the one who is gaining more weight instead of BB Eden.
However, it's still glad to hear that BB Eden is doing fine and growing just as well. Gynae said " Not too big and not too small. Just nice." HAHA!
Recently, I start to stare at my tummy and ponder.
I noticed that my tummy is turning bigger and rounder.
I thought it should be sharper instead cause BB Eden is a boy. This freaks me out!
Today went to gynae and asked for a reassure again to confirm BB Eden won't later suddenly 'become' a girl girl.
Luckily, the result is still the same after the scan. BB Eden still a boy boy!
Now, my tummy is so big that I hardly could bend down to cut my toenails and wash my 10 little toes while bathing. *Tsk!*
It left me feeling so irritated. And yes, I thought I will be free from late night leg cramps as it doesn't exist before until YTD.! I had one last night but a very short period(like 3-5 sec?) and left me a post-leg-cramp painfulness. I did put a pillow below to lift up my legs but I guess it doesn't help much. Now I hope my coming 3rd trimester don't be so harsh on me please!
BB Eden is so naughty, he kicked as my gynae is scanning my tummy.
He probably doesn't like the way he's being pressed and disturbed.
Everything went out fine. Gynae said that now the only thing is to wait for baby to grow bigger.
I went from 55kg in 14 Sept to 57.5kg today. Haa. So heavy!
I keep afraid that I might go over weight. Always asked my gynae is BB Eden overweight, but sad to say, Gynae said I'm the one who is gaining more weight instead of BB Eden.
However, it's still glad to hear that BB Eden is doing fine and growing just as well. Gynae said " Not too big and not too small. Just nice." HAHA!
Recently, I start to stare at my tummy and ponder.
I noticed that my tummy is turning bigger and rounder.
I thought it should be sharper instead cause BB Eden is a boy. This freaks me out!
Today went to gynae and asked for a reassure again to confirm BB Eden won't later suddenly 'become' a girl girl.
Luckily, the result is still the same after the scan. BB Eden still a boy boy!
Now, my tummy is so big that I hardly could bend down to cut my toenails and wash my 10 little toes while bathing. *Tsk!*
It left me feeling so irritated. And yes, I thought I will be free from late night leg cramps as it doesn't exist before until YTD.! I had one last night but a very short period(like 3-5 sec?) and left me a post-leg-cramp painfulness. I did put a pillow below to lift up my legs but I guess it doesn't help much. Now I hope my coming 3rd trimester don't be so harsh on me please!
Wednesday, September 29, 2010
Baby Expo is coming..
Baby Expo is coming.. thought wasn't that soon.
It's on the upcoming Oct 2010 at Singapore Expo hall.
It's on the upcoming Oct 2010 at Singapore Expo hall.
Baby Expo
22 oct 2010-24 oct 2010
Venue: Expo hall 6B
Admission: free admission to public
Admission: free admission to public
Event schedule:
22 oct -23 oct 2010 :11am-9pm
24 oct 2010 :11am-8pm
Baby expo provides you with amazing choices and unbeatable value on everything for your pregnancy,baby and toddler. Get set to make the most of the Hot deals & Great promotions!
By that time comes, I'm already on my 29th weeks as I counted. Heees! Though it gets tougher for me to go out for shopping but I'll still try my best to make the effort to get the best value stuffs prepare for my BB Eden arrival. HAHAHA! I know it's kinda kiasu but I believe it's all mother's nature ba.
So excited! Wish that Expo sales come fast fast so I can open my eyes wide to grab all the last minute things needed for BB Eden before I'm too FAT & CLUMSY to move around. =.="
WEE~!!!!!!
Tuesday, September 28, 2010
Way to Mount Alvernia for maternity tour..
Yesterday babyhubby was off again. He make a delicious breakfast with my favourite herbs bread, cheese, eggs and ham which he bought the night before yesterday. After preparing, we headed to Mount Alvernia for the maternity tour to understand more about the facilities and rooms, and different wards.On our way there..
I love this picture. It express so much about the feelings than words.
Love him ttm! ♥ 
His cute innocent boy-boy face!
Along the way while busy taking pictures, I noticed he keep caressing my tummy (BB Eden) and BB Eden is so excited and happy. Keep moving around in my tummy.
Wooo! It's gonna rain again!!
The goodies bag.
Includes: Magazines, Mum-to-be discount voucher, PIGEON baby wipes & nipple pads, HUGGIES diapers, free drinks coupon at the canteen and many brochures.It was quite eye-catching and interesting to be able to walk around the whole maternity level, to see all the different rooms, different wards, 10 delivery wards and many more with few groups of parents.
At Mount Alvernia, their delivery admission is different. Daddies will straight away bring the mummy to the delivery room then go to admission. After admission, the daddies can come back to the delivery room and accompany mommies til the baby is born then they will be transferred to their chosen rooms. Only daddies allow to enter the delivery wards/rooms. All rooms including the delivery rooms are internet wireless.
There's one part where we visit the nursery rooms. As the nurses inside the nursery room pull up the curtain, we saw so many lovely newborn babies! They are so adorable. The sight of it makes me so touched and warmth. The goosebumps all stands!
Last night before bed
babyhubby said: " Baby, tell BB Eden tomorrow he don't have to wake up so early because he don't need to attend school. "
I was like =.=" zzzz then I broke into laughter cos recently few times BB Eden wake up in the morning feeling hungry. Always the same timing. 6AM or 6plus. Wake up for breakfast before school. =.="
Then babyhubby asked is it that I always told BB Eden must study well so he gets so excited to go to school, every time 6AM wake up want eat breakfast then go to school. LOL.
Silly babyhubby! I love you so much la! HAHAHA!
updates for 26.09.2010
I've already chosen Mount Alvernia as my baby's delivery hospital. Scattered all the brochure around on the table. Decided to go through it seriously one by one with babyhubby. Make sure he gets in his mind, if not always tell him about it. Later on/ few days later asked him , he will said "huh?" Then I have to repeat myself again. So irritating! =.=" LOL
Had chosen for the double room. I think anyway it's just 2 days so a double room will be fine. I hope I can go through normal delivery w/o epidural. I know it's kinda hard to predict and my Gynae told me I'll probably give birth early.
My mom and relatives actually against me going for normal delivery as I've asthma, they worried that I'll not have enough breathe to push. I understand it may be risky, I'll still willing to try if in the end my doctor approves.
As for epidural, I've heard a lot people mentioned how pain it is, but I'm gonna give myself a challenge. No matter what I hope I won't considered a epidural.
What to bring upon your delivery admission:
As for mommies:
For newborn & daddies:
Friday, September 24, 2010
Happy pampering :D
Babyhubby is off yesterday and today.
Yesterday went watching movie and dinner with Babyhubby's friends. Xiaoboy,his wife (whose pregnant with 8 months),Chang & his gf, Qingwei & his gf.
We went AMK hub to watch "Chen Zhen" ,the recent show acted by Donnie Yen. The show was kinda interesting. Love watching his fighting scene. His abs is damn fit and sexy la! 40+ yr old still can stay in shape so well.
Babyhubby & I discussed and chat a lot of pregnancy stuffs together with Xiaoboy and his wife. Found out many different knowledge. Very fruitful sharing.
After that, we went Ang Mo Kio Ave 1 to have our seafood feast. CRABS! Superior! Salted fried crab & Buttermilk crab! Love their crabs, they were so delicious. In order to take a seat , we still have to queue for around 30 mins or more for a table but I think it's kinda worthy. Wahaha! I know due to some myth, many will say not advisable to eat crab or seafood. We think it's actually ok , as long as you don't really eat too much in too often , it will still be fine.
Today went out to BBDC with babyhubby as he's taking his final theory test and I'm so proud of him seriously. Just within less than a hr of revising at home, he managed to scored 49/50! First timer some more and you know the question they asked always tricky. Great great!
After that we went walking around in Town area, hoping to find a prenatal massage service which is good,worthy and reasonable. Not much interested until we got into one in Cuppage. The big advertisement poster of a beautiful pregnant woman outside the door caught our eye straight away.
We decided to check out their services and rates of the massage. Not realizing, actually that was wellness spa that Mediacorp artist , Zoey Tay is currently attending to. She had them attend to her by home services once very week.
They also provide home services to customers and their consultant is very patience in explaining every detailed to us. I take up the prenatal massage first time trial (45mins) which only costing $28 nett. After trying, I think they were professional and I thought the package is at a reasonable price too. Imagine each time you went to salon/spa for a prenatal massage is already estimate min $100 exclude the first time trial, some more plus it's a big spa & wellness with good products used.
Babyhubby and I had a discussion all over and he decided to sign up the package to pamper me! WEE! So contented because I'm very clear though our financial status is very tight now but babyhubby said as long as I like the treatment and I'm happy , it's worth it and also I don't really anyhow spent money to buy other stuffs so it's time to pamper me. Teheehee! I love you bi!!
BellaLuna
They are quite specialized on maternity massages.
They are quite specialized on maternity massages.
The packages that I took includes:
- Prenatal massage treatment (60mins)
OR
- Post natal massage treatment (Jamu massage + Mask + Wrap + Steam) / Dip sand treatment(cuppage only) (After 1 month confinement first)
- Home visit 5 Days recovery
consists of:
5x postnatal energizing massage therapy
5x natural sea salt scrub
5x portable steaming relaxer
4x overnight toning wraps
5x baby massage (helps/teach you how to help your baby massage)
Total: 20 sessions, not limit how many times you want it to be either prenatal /post-natal.
FOC: Wrapping/Toning Belt X1 -for postnatal (home visit)
FOC: Body scrub X7 session (with after some negotiation)
FOC: Body scrub X7 session (with after some negotiation)
Total package: 2k+ (of cause ,installment payment is allow)
My Naughty Cheeky Little Precious Boy!
BB Eden is kicking/poking/moving very much the whole day today. He has never been like this.
Normally is very peaceful & calm during the daytime other than if my position happen to compress him, he will kick me or else he only kicks during night time for a short period of time.
Is it because his eyes have start opening now already? I can't sleep well last night. Wake up at 5-6AM feeling heartburn and morning sickness came back. Backache persisted and shoulder blade is aching like nobody business. I burped a lot and vomited in the end.
BB Eden has been moving all day long til now! He is still moving inside very actively now! Why is this so? What is happening and what's wrong with BB Eden? I hope I can magically change becoming the magic school bus in the cartoon , so I can travel into my womb and see what's actually going on in there. LOL!
Wednesday, September 22, 2010
♥ Us ♥
Just wanna share our childhood photos together played on our wedding as a memories.
The actual day. Sisters and brothers , you guys are great! Thanks!! It's actually quite fun and hilarious! For info, the games that sisters plan:
- Dance 达浪舞 at my house downstairs
- Sing 唯一 dedicate to me
- Find the key that connects to my room door in icy cold water. (actually my room don't have a key)
- wax 3 person leg include groom
- Pledge his love to me outside my room and make sure I hear it.
Baby I'm sorry. =(
Few days ago just had a big arguments with babyhubby.
Emotional & imagination runs wild. Uncontrollable, I went insane.
Dint know that it sparks off the fight to become so serious.
Conversation was harsh and I even went crazy by saying I wanna take BB Eden away from my tummy and stop everything. What the hell am I even thinking? *slap my head!*
I understand Babyhubby is very tired and stress cause all the pressure is on him and I'm not working. However, at that point of time I just can't think carefully. I was impulsive. I admit that I'm the one who went too over board and I'm very bad tempered at times. Even stubborn and went ridiculous.
Things happened when I went home to stay couples days. I realized a married couple really have to stay together and sleep together on the same bed to share the bonding. You can say I'm superstitious but really, once I went home to stay,we will start quarrel.
Babyhubby dislike when I went home for too many days, he knew things would go wrong. He keep convinced to meet me and bring me home.
That day, mummy accompanied me to go over to Babyhubby workplace at Vivo. She dint know about our quarrel and I dint want her to know either , or worried about us. We just merely had our dinner there and some shopping.
When we reached Babyhubby working outlet, we saw he was doing closing soon. As he turned over, he still had himself to bring on the smile on his face and welcome us. That point of time I felt guilty but because of my stubbornness, I still ignored him.
We went in the shop and sat on the massage chair and I just left my slippers left and right on the floor. After babyhubby had clocked-out, he came over and put my pair of slippers nicely in front of my feet and help me to wear. Mummy saw his action and comment that Babyhubby is so loving and caring towards me. Yet , I wasn't appreciated and added up a sentence " That was just on the surface, superficial."
Babyhubby then brought me home with him. Throughout the whole journey back to Babyhubby home, Babyhubby was still showing his care and patience to me. He did not get angry and did not scold me. Along the way traveling in train, I secretly turned over to looked at his face. What I saw was not a angry face but a very tired and sleepy face. Awww. Suddenly my heart felt so painful and guilty. Then I realized he's having a hard time in work yet I still pressurized him by making nonsensical arguments. What a unthoughtful wife I am.
Babyhubby, I'm so so sorry about the comments and nasty words that I've said to hurt your feelings. I promised to be more considerate and understanding wife. Thinking about the times how we met , been together and got married. It's irreplaceable. I love you more and more and together we'll share all our little happiness awaiting the arrival of BB Eden. I love you more than everything my dear hubby. * Blushed!* Heeeees..
Along the way traveling on train, I listened to my mp3. And this song came out and refreshed my mind once again. Our Wedding second march in song. Breathless by Shayne ward
Emotional & imagination runs wild. Uncontrollable, I went insane.
Dint know that it sparks off the fight to become so serious.
Conversation was harsh and I even went crazy by saying I wanna take BB Eden away from my tummy and stop everything. What the hell am I even thinking? *slap my head!*
I understand Babyhubby is very tired and stress cause all the pressure is on him and I'm not working. However, at that point of time I just can't think carefully. I was impulsive. I admit that I'm the one who went too over board and I'm very bad tempered at times. Even stubborn and went ridiculous.
Things happened when I went home to stay couples days. I realized a married couple really have to stay together and sleep together on the same bed to share the bonding. You can say I'm superstitious but really, once I went home to stay,we will start quarrel.
Babyhubby dislike when I went home for too many days, he knew things would go wrong. He keep convinced to meet me and bring me home.
That day, mummy accompanied me to go over to Babyhubby workplace at Vivo. She dint know about our quarrel and I dint want her to know either , or worried about us. We just merely had our dinner there and some shopping.
When we reached Babyhubby working outlet, we saw he was doing closing soon. As he turned over, he still had himself to bring on the smile on his face and welcome us. That point of time I felt guilty but because of my stubbornness, I still ignored him.
We went in the shop and sat on the massage chair and I just left my slippers left and right on the floor. After babyhubby had clocked-out, he came over and put my pair of slippers nicely in front of my feet and help me to wear. Mummy saw his action and comment that Babyhubby is so loving and caring towards me. Yet , I wasn't appreciated and added up a sentence " That was just on the surface, superficial."
Babyhubby then brought me home with him. Throughout the whole journey back to Babyhubby home, Babyhubby was still showing his care and patience to me. He did not get angry and did not scold me. Along the way traveling in train, I secretly turned over to looked at his face. What I saw was not a angry face but a very tired and sleepy face. Awww. Suddenly my heart felt so painful and guilty. Then I realized he's having a hard time in work yet I still pressurized him by making nonsensical arguments. What a unthoughtful wife I am.
Babyhubby, I'm so so sorry about the comments and nasty words that I've said to hurt your feelings. I promised to be more considerate and understanding wife. Thinking about the times how we met , been together and got married. It's irreplaceable. I love you more and more and together we'll share all our little happiness awaiting the arrival of BB Eden. I love you more than everything my dear hubby. * Blushed!* Heeeees..
Along the way traveling on train, I listened to my mp3. And this song came out and refreshed my mind once again. Our Wedding second march in song. Breathless by Shayne ward
Couldn't find the original one as many has been blocked. Left this live.
If our love was a fairy tale
I would charge in and rescue you
On a yacht baby we would sail
To an island where we'd say I do
And if we had babies they would look like you
It'd be so beautiful if that came true
You don't even know how very special you are
Chorus
You leave me breathless
You're everything good in my life
You leave me breathless
I still can't believe that you're mine
You just walked out of one of my dreams
So beautiful you're leaving me
Breathless
And if our love was a story book
We would meet on the very first page
The last chapter would be about
How I'm thankful for the life we've made
And if we had babies they would have your eyes
I would fall deeper watching you give life
You don't even know how very special you are
Chorus
You leave me breathless
You're everything good in my life
You leave me breathless
I still can't believe that you're mine
You just walked out of one of my dreams
So beautiful you're leaving me
Breathless
You must have been sent from heaven to earth to change me
You're like an angel
The thing that I feel is stronger than love believe me
You're something special
I only hope that I'll one day deserve what you've given me
But all I can do is try
Every day of my life
Chorus
You leave me breathless
You're everything good in my life
You leave me breathless
I still can't believe that you're mine
You just walked out of one of my dreams
So beautiful you're leaving me
Breathless
You leave me breathless
You're everything good in my life
You leave me breathless
I still can't believe that you're mine
You just walked out of one of my dreams
So beautiful you're leaving me
breathless
I would charge in and rescue you
On a yacht baby we would sail
To an island where we'd say I do
And if we had babies they would look like you
It'd be so beautiful if that came true
You don't even know how very special you are
Chorus
You leave me breathless
You're everything good in my life
You leave me breathless
I still can't believe that you're mine
You just walked out of one of my dreams
So beautiful you're leaving me
Breathless
And if our love was a story book
We would meet on the very first page
The last chapter would be about
How I'm thankful for the life we've made
And if we had babies they would have your eyes
I would fall deeper watching you give life
You don't even know how very special you are
Chorus
You leave me breathless
You're everything good in my life
You leave me breathless
I still can't believe that you're mine
You just walked out of one of my dreams
So beautiful you're leaving me
Breathless
You must have been sent from heaven to earth to change me
You're like an angel
The thing that I feel is stronger than love believe me
You're something special
I only hope that I'll one day deserve what you've given me
But all I can do is try
Every day of my life
Chorus
You leave me breathless
You're everything good in my life
You leave me breathless
I still can't believe that you're mine
You just walked out of one of my dreams
So beautiful you're leaving me
Breathless
You leave me breathless
You're everything good in my life
You leave me breathless
I still can't believe that you're mine
You just walked out of one of my dreams
So beautiful you're leaving me
breathless
Sunday, September 19, 2010
The irritating stretch marks I hate you!
I'm so damn pissed off with the irritating stretch marks.
Just within a night time, came out multiples of stretch marks on my butt cheeks!! Many disgusting pimples pop like having party! *Cries!*
I remembered last night while applying the lotion on my butt cheeks, it was still few lines of stretch marks. ( like at most 3-4 lines)
Today, after bathing , as usual I apply my lotion and found it spreads from a few lines to many multiple lines. (like 10 or more now)
I'm so super duper upset man! I think I'm gonna go mad.
I can't accept it. What a great sacrifices!
Conclusion: I'll try not to spread too much time sitting, I should go for walk more often!!! >.<
Just within a night time, came out multiples of stretch marks on my butt cheeks!! Many disgusting pimples pop like having party! *Cries!*
I remembered last night while applying the lotion on my butt cheeks, it was still few lines of stretch marks. ( like at most 3-4 lines)
Today, after bathing , as usual I apply my lotion and found it spreads from a few lines to many multiple lines. (like 10 or more now)
I'm so super duper upset man! I think I'm gonna go mad.
I can't accept it. What a great sacrifices!
Conclusion: I'll try not to spread too much time sitting, I should go for walk more often!!! >.<
I'm so messed up.
Things are getting too much emotional recently. I don't know why everything doesn't seems to be in the right place. However, I just can't find a way to make it right. Mouth was blocked. No right words seems to be able to come out from my mouth.
Recently I've been thinking. Getting emotionally depressed and stress up.
I blamed the hormones that is causing all these to happen. Shit crap!
It's getting tougher for me to get into sleep at night.
Backaches are annoying. Tossing and turning on the bed, just can't find a right position to sleep on. It's so frustrating!
Some times, I'm really in dilemma. One side of me telling me to be contented with what I have now and cherish the moment, the other side of me is feeling so depressed and feels that I worth more than just that.
These days, I felt that I'm a failure too. I spent too much time thinking about myself than the little precious in my tummy. I've been asking myself, is my feeling more important than my little precious. I've been doing many things that I never spare a thoughts of feelings on BB Eden. I feel failure as a mom.
Comparing to many mommies and mommies-to-be, I feel so inferior. It's like nothing I've done much to prepare for the little precious to arrive in this world. I'm so sorry my little precious.
Every thing seems normal to you. Why am I the only one to think negatively? I always thought we were much better and comfortable all along, but now I think otherwise. Is this what people so-called " marriage" is to be? I doubted so.
Where's the happiness from the bottom of the heart gone to?
Recently I've been thinking. Getting emotionally depressed and stress up.
I blamed the hormones that is causing all these to happen. Shit crap!
It's getting tougher for me to get into sleep at night.
Backaches are annoying. Tossing and turning on the bed, just can't find a right position to sleep on. It's so frustrating!
Some times, I'm really in dilemma. One side of me telling me to be contented with what I have now and cherish the moment, the other side of me is feeling so depressed and feels that I worth more than just that.
These days, I felt that I'm a failure too. I spent too much time thinking about myself than the little precious in my tummy. I've been asking myself, is my feeling more important than my little precious. I've been doing many things that I never spare a thoughts of feelings on BB Eden. I feel failure as a mom.
Comparing to many mommies and mommies-to-be, I feel so inferior. It's like nothing I've done much to prepare for the little precious to arrive in this world. I'm so sorry my little precious.
Every thing seems normal to you. Why am I the only one to think negatively? I always thought we were much better and comfortable all along, but now I think otherwise. Is this what people so-called " marriage" is to be? I doubted so.
Where's the happiness from the bottom of the heart gone to?
Friday, September 17, 2010
I miss my old self. ))=
Seriously I miss the old me.
I'm a very self-conscious person. Though now it's because I'm pregnant with Eden and I've grown, some times I still feel that I'm fat , I shouldn't eat too much.
I can't even stand the way I walked some times. I looked like a big fat penguin!
In my whole life I've never been so fat before, now I felt so depressed and low esteem. I know this is just because of pregnancy,just a time being. Many will say, "you can slim down after you give birth, for now, just eat more." However , I don't have the confidence that I will slim down a lot after birth. Even after birth, many things will slowly change. Examples, your skin texture, aging,metabolism and so on..
To all mommies out there, you guys are really brave and sacrifice a lot for your baby. Just hoping that in the future our children will understand how much pain we have suffered to give birth them.
See my last time pictures, I suddenly felt that I'm no longer young and sweet anymore. Starting to the stage of becoming auntie.These is just so heart-aching.
I miss my La La. Things have changes so much. We have our own thing to handle now and no longer seen together in a pair anymore. ):
I miss our belly dance lesson too. You promise to wait for me and attend our R&B freestyle dance together.
2008-2009
Times passes really damn fast. Soon, I can't remember how I used to put on those make ups.
I'm a very self-conscious person. Though now it's because I'm pregnant with Eden and I've grown, some times I still feel that I'm fat , I shouldn't eat too much.
I can't even stand the way I walked some times. I looked like a big fat penguin!
In my whole life I've never been so fat before, now I felt so depressed and low esteem. I know this is just because of pregnancy,just a time being. Many will say, "you can slim down after you give birth, for now, just eat more." However , I don't have the confidence that I will slim down a lot after birth. Even after birth, many things will slowly change. Examples, your skin texture, aging,metabolism and so on..
To all mommies out there, you guys are really brave and sacrifice a lot for your baby. Just hoping that in the future our children will understand how much pain we have suffered to give birth them.
See my last time pictures, I suddenly felt that I'm no longer young and sweet anymore. Starting to the stage of becoming auntie.These is just so heart-aching.
2009 est around march-may:
I miss my La La. Things have changes so much. We have our own thing to handle now and no longer seen together in a pair anymore. ):I miss our belly dance lesson too. You promise to wait for me and attend our R&B freestyle dance together.
My second Bikini shoot 2009
First Bikini shoot
2008-2009
2006-2007
Times passes really damn fast. Soon, I can't remember how I used to put on those make ups.
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