Dilemma

I'm caught in the middle.

Never expect things would be like this.

What am I going to do...


Follow your heart.......

You

Why am I thinking of you at this hour?

I asked myself am I missing you already?

Do I miss you.? Without realising it?

If not, why do I feel such weird connection without you around?

If not, why do I waiting forward for your messages and calls?


*MOOD -confused

Empty heart♡

Buunnnyyy...

It's saddening. You disappoint me.
Never know that there's so much beyond your words.
I don't know should I believe you anymore..
You broke our trust.

Utterly disappointed..

Maybe it will be better this way.. Do take care..

miss? ♥

BunnY BUnnY BUNNYY BuNnY....... is sleeping (:

You lied. You was with someone else.

A week ago.

Just grabbed the pictures from Shirley.

We went to gym as promise in the early noon. After gym, accompany Shirley go home to get prepared then followed up is my house.

Alright I'm rather lazy I admit so let the pictures do the talking yea? (:

Me and Shirley

After that we went to Cineleisure for pasta as for dinner and like usual we went to take pictures! It's been a long time I last take neo-prints.



After dinner we went window shopping around and end up come up with the idea of going for a chill at Starbucks && all sorts of nonsensical pictures come about..

Me and Zhen rong

Kelvin and me

And.. Shirley & me. In this picture , she asked me "Wendy, Why are you sleeping?" LOL.

In the end we went rounding at Jurong hill. Sniffing the smell of Cabury chocolate as the factory is only nearby. I was there feeding those hungry mosquitos. Sickening! Alright I shall end here. *yawns.

Good nights everyone! ♥

Sickness bugging me! ):

Missing the lively Wendy.

I couldn't hide but to admit that my body's getting weaker day by day.

My immune system don't seems strong enough to overcome against the virus.


After consuming around 2-3 weeks for antibiotics, my throat infection recovered however all the antibiotics are to complete. So I have to continue eating the medicine and thus, make my lips dry.


My weight drops 3kg thou it makes me grins a little bit but it's all sacrifices to be made..


Upon recovery , I thought this is it. The end of suffering but what comes in the end was something more worse and horrible.


RASHES~!


I got these rashes developed all over my body except my face. I got my lips so damn swollen like sausages! Alright please don't laugh when you read upon this sentence. Thank you very big uh.


Looking in the mirror, I almost cry out loud! I look like a creature! A HORRIBLE UGLY FREAK WITH RASHES ALL OVER!

STILL... I'm being make fun by my siblings who stated that I look like a Tweety bird~!!! and there they goes with smirking and laughs. WTH!!

It was so itchy and I was told to wear long sleeves and pants in my house and I wasn't suppose to on the fan regardless how stuffy and hot I feel.


I cant scratch and trust me, IT FEELS AWFULLY HORRIBLE.


Why am I so weak? I don't wanna spend my birthday on the bed with sickness and stuffs.

It's a saturday night and I can't go out )':

Please let me get well soon.

Sick for a week and still on.

Feeling so sick the past few days.

Was having a very seriously infection sore throat. All these days, I couldn't drink , eat or even swallow my saliva. Talking also seems a difficulty to me. I can't talk properly.

I feel terrible, cause even I dint do anything just watching TV, it still hurts and it's somehow swollen around my neck due to the infection inside throat.

Fever keep on and off every night, have to depends on the medication to lower down my temperature.

Went to CGH on the 28th.

The medication causes me a big bomb and I have to finish all my antibiotics. There so much of them, I'm so sick for eating all these pills already.

However it's good enough, at least it's not like last time where I used to have this same infection on throat, it's so serious that I have to stay hospitalised and went for a small operation for 2 times.

The only food I can eat is porridge and soupy food cause it's somehow easier for me to swallow. So boring!

Have not much appetite all these days too. Have craves but cant eat and all these pills are making me so damn sickk.

Some can cause gastric pains and sometimes can also leads to lost of appetite, nausea and etc..

Bag full of medicine ):

These are all the medicine and I have to finished almost all of them. *Yuuk!*

All my medical bills ):

So many medicine given.

All of the above bills cause a bomb man.!

Injected ):

Hope to get well soon and finishes all the pills before my birthday. *sobsob*

Awaiting for the arrival of my birthday!

Fever

Having high fever.

It's so uncomfortable and i feel so horrible, but my heart hurts more.

I always thought I'll forget you, but you stand so firm in my heart.

I understand many things are impossible and I've been repeating this over and over again.

You still lingers so much in my mind and heart.

There's no place for others at all, even it's just a small portion, none compares to you.

I don't know what in you that makes me love you so much.

To you, I'm just another ex girlfriend.

You wanted your life.

Sometimes I really feel like leaving this world. Thru all the shit stuff happened to me recently. So many.

Many have told me, it's moment of time. Who says so?

I never let you know, I'm not afraid that you will hurt me. but I just want you.

During this time, having fever, all i think is you.

I don't even bother bout my life. Don't bother drink a sip of water, don't even see doc.

This shows how much i misses you and wanted you badly. You said thou we are not couple anymore, you will still be there for me. Concern me but where you when i need you the most?

Y? Y is it you can give up so easily? I had never want you to stop pursuing interest in your life.

I really miss the days where we are so loving together everyday.

When you inside camp, i miss you so much. All your sms-es keep me going on.

I may not show it out but you really mean alot to me.

You are the one we've been together the shortest time but I love you so deep.

I'm just so happy being with you..

I know I'm so selfish, wanted to keep you with me. Don't wanna let you go but...

I love you, I really do... so much..misses you so badly..

I'm tired of putting a fake smile on face anymore.

i love you
i miss you
i dying to see you...

After all, i'm just a substitute.

一個人失憶

一個人失憶


你要旅行 我還不能去 你不開心
我還是不是原因 總不確定
我還能夠靠你多近 兩個人 翻來覆去

你的簡訊 是一般的語氣 你的關心
都有些小心翼翼 還愛著你 我要怎麼才能適應
兩個人 只剩朋友關係

就讓我一個人失憶 消失在你的世界裡
就當我任性 不懂體諒你
讓我 躲在角落安靜的放空著呼吸

就算 我知道你也不願意 消失在我的世界裡
可是我不能 再自然看你
裝做 兩個人 什麼都沒有發生 一個人失憶

你的簡訊 是一般的語氣 你的關心
都有些小心翼翼 還愛著你 我要怎麼才能適應
兩個人 只剩朋友關係

就讓我一個人失憶 消失在你的世界裡
就當我任性 不懂體諒你
讓我 躲在角落安靜的放空著呼吸 放空著呼吸

就讓我一個人失憶 消失在你的世界裡
就當我任性 不懂體諒你
讓我 躲在角落安靜的放空著呼吸

我知道你也不願意 消失在我的世界裡
可是我不能 再自然看你
裝做 兩個人 什麼都沒有發生 一個人失憶....

Dancing my favourite

Din't really sleep. So I was thinking of watching some videos at youtube. Found this capture my attention.

It was a clips of a dance at 我猜我猜我猜猜猜.

Nice moves she got so decided to share it with you.

How I wish I can dance like her!!!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=MXIfWqeazbo&feature=related




Enjoy!!

Contact me?

To all my friends out there.

You guys must have been thinking why am I not answering your calls and replying your sms-es uh?

I'm not MIA.

For your info, I LOST MY PHONE. DAAAMMMMNNN!

Feeling damn sad. I lost all my contacts and I can't remember any of you guys' numbers.

Forget it. Don't wanna talk about it anymore. Don't cry over spilled milk. It's useless.

So regardless whoever which friends, classmates, schoolmates , ex- colleagues , pleaseeee send me your contact. I'm still using the same number.

Thanks (=

*misses*

17th Sept

At Raining Bar

Me and Adeline


Jia yi and me

Top3 (Michelle, Ivan aka panda, Apple) Below3 (Jia yi, me and Adeline)

US

Ivan kissing kor. *Random!

Adeline and Jia yi

They are very nice and sweet girl.

Went to Raining Bar that day. Just there for some gathering and chillin' up with friends.

Things goes as usual.

Pretty tired. My mind was blank. Lack of sleep, lack of oxygen.

Futher update soon..

I miss you but goodbye

Yesterday, had nothing to do while drinking at Whiskey, I used the request song paper to tear this words out. LOL.

I changed my blog song again. All these days have been listening to this thai song. It's a very nice song.

I guess it's time for me to really let go and stop hoping fat dream that there's a chance for us to reconcile anymore.

I know no matter how good I treat you, how touched you are, still, you will never be back to me again.

After the day, I let you go, I've never stop missing you, I regretted. It's like every words you said, every action you do, still lingers with me.

That incident makes u troubled but also makes my heart breaks. Breaks to see everything with my own eyes, breaks to accept the fact, breaks to only able to keep a mumbled to myself and breaks to see you in that state.

Keep telling myself that I've gotten over you, it's all lies.

You already move on, why am I stuck here?

These few weeks, our memories and relationship, we both know it better than anyone.

The heartache in me that you will never understand why I would always be there doing things for you so willingly.

I don't want regrets in life but I don't wanna left hanging anymore.

I know you wanted me to move on. You wanted me to find someone who can treat me better than you do.

Here I left. Forgetting bout our past ,forgetting bout our relationship other than a simple friend.

Hope that you'll be happier.

'I miss you but goodbye...'

The changed.

There's a lot to blog on. I think I'll just make it short.

However due to my internet was cut off, I couldn't blog everything up and my pictures were all stocked up!

4th of Sept went over to Sophia's house to celebrate Xin Tian's birthday. We had steamboat as requested by the birthday girl for our dinner and went over to buy a white fruity wine recommended by the staff at "Denise Wine Bar". It was great and I guess all of us enjoy ourselves.

After that we stay over to watch a movie that Sophia rented while on the way to buy the wine.

Took some pictures together and after finished the cake we went over to the swimming for some chats.

It's was very late then, I had to spend my night at Xin tian's house.

Xin tian and me

These are some pictures taken the next day at Xin tian's house. Sophia dint go to school so she came over to find us. Naughty girl. LOL.

Sophia, Xin Tian and me

Sophia and me

Some pictures of me after dying black hair. In the first place I wasn't quite used to it but after some time, I think it's better.

'Cause my new hair grow out already and it's so ugly.

You can see the difference and also some times after a long day out, my hair always tends to look oily. At least black don't look so much bad.

Finally it's black!

This was taken before. I love this pic!

After dyeing black. Somehow , i felt abit regretted cause i think i don't suit black hair.
Cant take clear pics cause i dint make up haha.

*ARGGGHHHH~!

Nevermind. I hope it fades to dark brown. O.o

)=

Changed my blog song.

I know this song is kinda long ago. But somehow, i feel that this song is very meaningful.

My life was kinda bored all these days, same thing everyday.

Don't know what to do.

By the way, sorry guys dint reply the tags all these while as my internet was cut off. )=

Well, it's getting more n more boring about my life, don't know what to write on blog also.

Just that there's something always in heart that cannot be express out. *Arrgh.. feeling so terrible.

Anyway, if one day i ever disappear in this life due to some kind of accident or illness, Will there be someone missing my presence when i'm gone .... like gone forever.. I wondered.

My life is BORING..

I miss Buddy buddy! (=

Powerhouse

Mum always 'pop' out when I taking my half body picture. Scary!~ =.=

Finally she left the picture.

Blurryyy

Went to Zouk yesterday but because the rest came late so everyone dint manage to go in.

In the end , we went to powerhouse instead.

Was rather fun there. Many of us were there including becca's friends. Almost 12 or more.

Saw Kelsie and Audrey there too. So happy to see them, they like MIA already.

Took some pictures with them as well.

Hmm, lazy to blog. Let pictures do the job (: