You

YOU always never seems to be satisfied...

A bless of time.

God bless me!

At this moment of time, baby accept my apology. 11:32pm Monday 19 May 2008.

I've got my punishment and I been through what I should to know my serious mistake.

I will change to a better girlfriend.
Trust me I'll prove it to you.

Be your most obedient girl. <3


Baby I love you...!

Missing you badly

*04.02.2008~*

Though the time we spent together is short but I'm really happy with you.

Terry Tan.

My baby loves.

Every night always at this point of time, I've been missing you badly.
I wanted to tell you how terrible and upset I feel within me ,but I cant.
You are not here for me anymore. Even my words don't seems to capture your attention.
Now then I realised, our love is actually so weak which I thought it was that strong.
I dint expect it would ended up so fast. Even myself got shocked that this is how we ended up.

I really miss you baby.
I miss every part of us.
The way we hold our hands, when you gave me the flowers, when we went for our first dinner and movies...
You always remember my favorite McWings meal and mayonnaise sauce..
How I wish I'm able to hug you tightly in my arms now.
No matter what I've said and tried.
I just can't make you love me more.
Am I really make you loathe me so much?

After that day, I'm like a dead walking zombie on streets. Wandering aimlessly on streets and have no sense of direction. I can feel the pain even when breathing.
I wish you are here, things could be so different with you around.
Memories flashes through my mind again and again.
The memories seems to be more clearer and tougher for me to move on.
Without you by my side now, I've no motivations in doing anything.

I used to pass days by study and working, waiting forward to weekend for you to book out.
But now, I don't know what am I gonna do for the rest of the days ahead.
I don't dare to imagine.

I just can't accept the fact that you walked out of my life just like that.
I've already make you part of my life, just like you used to tell to me....

How do I live without you?
I want to know.
How do I breathe without you?
If you ever go.
How do I ever.. ever survive?
How do I? How do I?
Oh how do i live?....

Bits and pieces of memories.
You left me scarred.
I cant forget you baby..

一个人

The smile that can never see on Wendy's face again.

I think this song fits into very part of my feelings now.
Time is all i need now.
Struggling within me...


从皮包里扯出我们的照片
沙发要移到客厅的另一边
晚饭后你可以多抽几口香烟
已经没什么人会埋怨

晴天 阴天 今天又是星期天
唯一的打算是 醒得晚一些
反正我不知道怎样打发时间
出门或不出门 没差别

一个人 到底应该睡右边或左边
两个人 连一次争吵都值得纪念
一个人 偶尔感到寂寞再所难免
你的气味 还留在枕头边

一个人 我重新适应一切不方便
两个人 不一定就成全一个世界
一个人 关灯看见记忆的横切面
没有光线 过去那些情节 更明显

...更明显...

Over

Everything is over... I'm dying for your return.. Please don't leave me alone like you said you wouldn't.

Promise me never to leave me, that's what you say..I still remember..
Why can't you?..

Reflections

School starts tml.
New modules again and it means exams too.

The daily routine of my life is boring.
Working , studies.. and so on.

Btw, Happy birthday to her.
If she know who am i mentioning.
Hope you like the present that we bought you.
But maybe it isn't something important.

Had some conflicts these few days with baby.
We've been trying to change the situation to a better state.

Hopefully it's better, i guess.

Just finished chatting with baby on phone.
He's back in camp.
And i miss him real much.
I believe he does feel it the same way too. *Don't ya baby.? Loves!♥

*Hees.
Waiting forward to this wednesday.
Baby's out camp for training.


Seriously, i dont understand why sometimes, human would always like to assume things without finding out the real meanings that some others may refers to and interpret things which they expect it is to be so right and definitely as what they thought.

I've learned that things can be superficial on the surface. Including humans.
Never interpret straight to the points that you might think.
Always find out the possibility that it may refers to.
Human tends to make this mistake.
Cause many things interpreted may related with jealousy, hatred, biased, favoritism, the feelings of being able to win in a conflicts and many other issues.

Examples , my boyfriend and I.
I used to think I'm sensitive bout his feelings and do/say what I used to think it's gd for him , but in fact, I was wrong due to the kind of care and concern wasn't what he really yearned for.In result, we always hurt ourselves with sarcastism and criticism which we don't mean so much in it.

Thanks to one of my friend.Which i wouldn't wanna mention here ( Trying to hide the identity of this friend)
He was there to make me understand what a guy would think and what the words he says may refer.
So it's still better if you would know his character much well to be sure to interpret their words.

With Loves,Wendy♥