Sometimes I can't help thinking. Why even being nice is so difficult when the one thing u want is just to be nice and yet others still suspect and deny your 'being nice' as an motive. Why can't some things just that easy and straight forward? I cherish my relationship with people more than I cherish myself. To be frank, I super rarely will have arguments with friends because many times I choose to let go and don't hold on grudges to the things that makes me upset or disappointed. Though forgive and forget is really the case but for me I can't say i will forget but certainly no doubt I can forgive most of the time. At times I really feel that I'm too generous to forgive that others took advantages of me. Stabbing me hard from the back. I don't need that kind of attention to stands out in the crowd as some may thought I will. And no! I don't, once again said!
After-all, as time goes by, I' ve learned and used to be loner or stands far back at one side of the corner. So this kind of attention don't suits me at all. To me, friends are valuables for cherish if its worth. Or not, I will just leave those who doesn't worth my concern far away. Straight forward. No need any evil plans or whatsoever bitchy-ness to get things done. That's just not my way of handling things. If I don't bother I won't even care anything about the person that no longer worth my concern. So if they think I'm trying to put in a little more effort to bitch or harm them , then they are just childish peeps. I'm not that girly bitch that your mother thinks of.
Nevertheless, I don't think any friends worth insulted as a being a dog/ Chao ah Lian if they said they cherish u as real friends. It's just plain childish thinking.
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