Wednesday, August 08, 2012

Back to workforce

Have been to many interviews lately, regardless of agents or direct companies. Finally, today I've receive a phone call from one of the agents that I'm shortlisted for the job. Yes! I've got the job! No more of traveling ample times for interviews now. It was quite difficult to find a suitable job to suits my schedule as I've to fetch and pick Eden back and fro school. I could only get a strictly 5 days job around the West/North area. Basic simple admins roles, no or seldom OT because I don't intend to send Eden school on Sat. Well, I'm gonna start work on next Thursday. So I gonna live like I'm dying and enjoy my days before I start working.

I'm feeling so nervous and anxious. It's been awhile when I've been away from the workforce. I'm really afraid I'm not able to cope especially I'm a mom now. Many choices and decisions I'm going to make, I have to think twice for myself and for the family.

There's so many worries. Hopefully I'll be able to cope and get use to it fast. I've always have high expectations of myself. I cannot let myself down so I'm actually giving myself a lot of stress. I thought so much lately, everything happens for a reason. Sometimes I really feel so pressurize for bottled up all problems to myself.. I have a feeling I'm gonna explode sooner or later. Sigh!

Off from the topic, I finally have the courage to start doing some exercise ytd.Done some crunches before I went to bed. Hopefully, this motivation will lasted longer. I missed my figure badly. Although I'm slimmed a little but it's still far from my previous figure and expectations. Gambate! Wendy! You can do it!





Friday, August 03, 2012

Random

  • 写了几封信给你 我自己都已经忘记
  • 经过许多年 它们不曾呼吸
  • 写了几个字给你 我始终没有传过去
  • 自己偷偷暗藏 算不算心机

  • 我猜模糊了期待 就有勇气再重来
  • 暂时不明白 但我愿意等待

  • 谁记得谁痛苦你说的容易
  • 努力摹仿你轻松语气
  • 我的生活还要继续 好不容易

  • 就算是等待只换来对不起
  • 我还是可以说服自己
  • 舍得每一段风景 因为舍不得自己 再想起你

  • 心里有几个抽屉 是不能翻开的秘密
  • 经过许多年 假装不曾想起
  • 心中有多少回忆 是不能碰触的刺激
  • 渐渐变成悬疑 够不够美丽

  • 我猜模糊了期待 就有勇气再重来
  • 暂时不明白 但我愿意等待

  • 谁记得谁痛苦你说的容易
  • 努力摹仿你轻松语气
  • 我的生活还要继续 好不容易

  • 就算是等待只换来对不起
  • 我还是可以说服自己
  • 舍得每一段风景 因为舍不得自己 再想起你
  • Maze

    Sometimes I do asked myself. Who I really am? What am I? What I'm doing? What should I do? As times goes by, I find myself having lots of thoughts,many questions and wonders. I also find it hard to describe and express my feelings nowadays.


    Everybody is handling their own problems and doing their own things. Din have a time to sit down and have a nice chat with you. Understand what you've gone thru and listen to what u wanna say.


    I start to isolated myself. Restrict myself from talking out my feelings and troubles with people because they won't get to understand and put themselves in your shoes.Though they may say they understand they know, but by the matter of facts they know nuts about it. Probably just entertain you by saying some caring words that din meant from the heart , instead just want you to stop whining like a bitch and STFU.


    Everything change so much after I've married and gave birth. Now I'm a mother, I have to keep spare thoughts for others that I don't have time to think about myself. It's always about the money, others' feelings and more on educating and teaching my son. No! If you thought I'm regretting for getting married in my early age and having a child, the answer is definitely 'N.O'. I love my son very much. I put him as my everything before I am but here I am talking is about my own issue. Not about my son. I also human, of cos even I'm a mom, the perceptions and decision of going out to the workforce to earn every single cents myself not depending on people, educate myself and learning more skills in regardless of life,work or for family is always stronger pinned in my mind. 


    What I want is someone to talk to, someone who can really feel and understand you, believing in you, motivate you time to time telling you a simple words like "you can do it!", " I believe you can, believe in yourself" or a pat on you shoulder just to comfort you. It's good more than enough. Just that will warms my heart deeply. 

    Sometimes I really tired. Very tired on doing things not feeling appreciated. When things are well, no one turn back and praise you for doing good. When things went wrong, everyone turn to your face pin-point straight at your face, screaming, shouting and blaming at you for not handling the situations well. Those good deeds that one's done is easily forgotten , but one mistake you make and you are gone case. I've always been doing things for people, volunteer and helping out from my heart. Who ever volunteer to help to do something for me just for the sake of putting themselves in your shoes and feel you? Often I feel it's worthless helping, asking myself why do I still help? You know what? I don't know neither. I know it's worthless but if someone approach me for help sincerely, I will still try help in regardless. You can call me dumb or stupid but I don't ask for any returns just to see a smile on their face or a relieve.


    I gave up so much things now. Many things cannot be replace can neither be erase nor they have a re-do buttons for me. Though I told myself, I cannot keep look back and reminisce the past memories, have to look forward and embrace all the upcoming future but if without support, motivations and encouragement, I still can't see any future ahead awaiting for me. A definite goals to work to.

    Friday, February 17, 2012

    im back again!

    It's been months I've neglecting my blog. Spending most of the time taking care of the little bubbly Eden. He's been very active as time passes by. Finally, have settled his 1st birthday celebration and done searching and selecting the preschool for Eden. I've discussed and make decision with my hubby to go back work after settle Eden down in Mulberry learning Academy when he's 18 months.

    Went down wanting to pay the register fees ytd. To my surprise, they are having HMF outbreak this period! Quickly move Eden far away from the school. In the end, din walk in to pay. The staff there just pass me a set of register forms to be filled up. He just recovered from his fever , I dont want him to catch the bugs again. Wondered why he has been on and off feverish ever since his 1st birthday. Is there other way to boost up his immune system ? I dont wanna him to keep get sick after I sick him to school.

    Acc hubby down to Rolex shop to check upon his watch. My heels was killing me then. Had a few blisters walking with my heels. No choice, went into a shop in lucky plaza to get a new pair of heels. Later on, had a walk with hubby and Eden around Ion. Bought a Bebe white tank top. Was again attracted by the old rhinestone design tank after few years. Afterall, I was wearing my sister's all along, so thought of getting one for my own. Wanted to get the short sleeves Tshirt top instead couldn't find it at the Ion outlet. Had a dinner at Paradise Xiao long bao @ Ion level 4 with Hubby, Eden ,Hubby's 2nd bro and mil. Overall, it was a sumptuous dinner. Din manage to try the 8 different colour xiao long bao though. Shall try next time round. :)

    Next month march & is hubby's birthday again. Din know what to get for him again. I seldom get present for him. Was kinda guilty and sad as I was not working. Din have my own finance coming. Hubby booked a yatch tgt with his fren to celebrate their birthday there tgt. Can see he was very excited! HAHA! Hope Eden wont feel sea sick as well.

    Alright , I shall update again soon! See ya!

    Tuesday, August 16, 2011

    When the roosters starts to sing..

    Went to Kbox with shirley and Jayvier last night. It's been many months ever I stepped into there after giving birth to Eden.

    We had a enjoyable singing session especially Shirley , with the out of tune of 听海! 听海become 听奶!Lmao!!

    Afterwards, I went to meet Cassandra and we head to sk there the sintua to ask a for a peaceful mind. Without Eden by my side, my boobs really going to burst by accumulate all the milk. Went home thought of pumping see whether I can find the pump shield but to my disappointment, I really dint bring it along with me. Sadly, I had to compress the milk out by hand. Wth! It's not that tedious as I thought by still it's kinda tiring thou. My surprised, I'm still able to compress 150ml using hand. Hahaha! Luckily after that Eden hungry again and help me to remove the leftover milk. *Heng ah!*

    Hmm, later night got to call up eden's pd clinic to book appt for Eden. His phlegm problem is getting worse and affect his breathing and drink milk. He's having a slight cough n flu too. :( Hope he will be alright soon.


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    Location:Pasir ris ehub, kbox

    Thursday, August 11, 2011

    Life goes on..

    Nowadays been so busy that I rarely enter my blog.

    Eden is on his 7th month already. How time has passed so quickly.

    I'm moving on to another stage with Eden. He's in his stage two now and I'm glad to say that I'm still able to breastfeed him til now. I've also been cooking porridge or si Shen brown rice porridge(with yang Shen) and other purèes into his diet.

    Excited to more upcoming recipes that I can cook for Eden very soon!

    Thinking back when I just started as a mom, life was hectic and disaster. ( it is still kinda disaster now due to my little active monster)

    Ytd I was just chatting with mommy Kim about life we used to be when we were single ladies. Hanging out with friends late night without hesitation, going clubbing often without having to ask our hubby for permission,hang out with friends for a short break chill session without headache who could take care of our baby, sun tanning without worrying bout our baby and our figure and going out with our guy buddies for a chill-out session. All these we used to do without having to worry about anything, cos it's just ourselves. Now everything we do, we got to think twice of our family. Life's just isn't the same anymore. The commitment that we choose is a life-long issue, not something we can simply give up just within a snap of a finger.
    It's really a tough decision. However, we both had no regrets for coming this far. There's always pros and cons. You gained something, you lose something just like what my hubby always told me "东西每次都是这样的,有「一」好、没有「两」好。sigh*

    Oh ya! Nearly forget! People please congrats me! Because my applications for applying flats has approved and I've gotten my queue number. Although it's very far, 700+ but I still very glad we got a queue number. Hopefully we are still able to get a gd flat
    locations and unit. Anyway, FYI I've alrdy applied it for the 4th time! I've applied for archovale cove, punggol parcvista, tampines greenleaf/greengarden and fernvale riverbow/archovale isles. We shall wait for the time for selections of flat in oct. Wee! I'm so excited!





















    Now these is one step nearer to our family planning's future. Next I shall get my car license ASAP and start planning for eden's 1st birthday celebrations! I hope I can make it a big gd blast for
    Eden!

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    Tuesday, May 17, 2011

    I finally update! -Weaning My Little Cute Eden!

    Finally, Little mini Eden is in his 4th mth. Times really flies so fast! Thinking back when he's still inside me, how he looked like and what kind of character baby is he still makes me so happy.

    Well, finally in his 4th mth, I'm so anxious to start trying out making purée for him to eat already. Hahahaha! I've tried making apple purée for him. It was a success! And he ate so much! Still whined,screamed and cry when I stop feeding him. When feeding him, he saw the spoon coming closer ,he will use his hands to grabbed the spoon from me to put inside his mouth. So adorable! But of cause he ate until the whole hand all purée. zzz -.- Ended up I fed him quite a lot cause I cant afford to see him cry for more. Cry until so 'qi chum'. :_;

    I bought the Avent 2-in-1 steamer plus blender. It really make the job alot easier. :D Steam and blend it in one. Dont have to slowly steam with pot and blend with our whole hand. Gd! Save my trouble!

    Ytd, fed him with the new organic biscuit from cold storage. Crush the biscuit then added 60ml of expressed milk unknowingly that was too much milk added. Suppose to be
    purée, ended up become like porridge. Diao! Lesson learned.!


    What shall I do today? Thought of doing mash potato for him. Hmmm, shall go downstair NTUC buy washed potato later. Hahahas! Eden's ingredient all have to be in mini size de. Heard those smaller/younger fruits/veggy are easier for them to digest. :D

    Another thing to share with u guys! I just went to see 罗志祥 on sat! 14 May 2011! He's super handsome la! Have never seen any man that handsome and attractive,esp he dance and sings sentimental love songs.Super attracted to him! If next time Eden grow up got 1/2 of his handsome,talent and filial piety towards me, I've no regrets liao!I must be dreaming! -.-" Remb last year went to see his 舞法舞天concert was when mini Eden still inside me unnoticed. Still went powerhouse celebrate my friend, yue's birthday. Drank a lot and drank neat with Sim Qiren for 3-4 secs. Smoke some more! Tsk! Lucky nothing happen to Eden. If not I'll be so sad and guilty! 








    Monday, May 02, 2011

    。・゜・(ノД`)・゜・。我要减肥!

    翻开一篇篇的久照片,忍不住的感到伤心难过。

    以前那漂移的长发,细小的手臂和腰围已经不在了。以往爱穿的衣服也应此挤不进了。虽然一直告诉自己一切都是值得的,但我仍然无法随附心中那份遗憾。

    嗨~(( ´Д`)y━・~~ 这就是当妈妈的其中的代价~!

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    Location:Choa Chu Kang North 6,,Singapore

    Tuesday, April 26, 2011

    About breastfeeding-I'm not a expert, Im just a mom who encounter lots of difficulty in breastfeeding

    Milk supply...

    Hi mommies stressing about milk supply?
    Fenugreek  
    You can try fenugreek capsules from the GNC. Fenugreek is a natural herbs that helps boosting in your milk supply.

    I've tried but fenugreek doesnt works on me. How?
    Try sacred tea.!!

    Sacred tea
    If you having the same situation as me, tried everything drink fish papaya soup,eating oat and others food that you've heard in aiding the milk supply but still having low milk supply? Same! Doesn't work for me too. So you're not alone here. Just like everyone else, I'm feeling stress and depressing on my low milk supply. I searched everywhere for answer and found sacred tea. Any slight chances of hope, I wish to give it a try.

    So I began to order it online a website which I've found.www.sacredtea.weebly.com
     
    Sacred Tea for Nursing Mothers 
    • 100% Certified organic herbal formula, formulated with specific ingredients proven to successfully increase milk supply within days.("Certified Organic" means the item has been grown according to strict uniform standards that are verified by independent state or private organizations. Certification includes inspections of farm fields and processing facilities, detailed record keeping, and periodic testing of soil and water to ensure that growers and handlers are meeting the standards, which have been set.)
    • also to protect both mom and baby's digestive systems from common stomach upset, indigestion, constipation and gas. 
    • Sacred Tea for Nursing Mothers was exclusively created to help you. The Unique combination of our ingredients makes this herbal formula a powerful cocktail of Vital Nutrients that will help your body to increase your milk supply. 
    • It's 100% safe n tested by hundreds over mothers.
    • is the #1 natural selling product on the market.
    • It's created by a woman named Ana sola who is a Professional Labor Assistant, Breastfeeding Consultant,Hypno-Childbirth Educator,Wellness Consultant, Women's Spiritual Counselor, Motivational Speaker and an Author.She do have the same problem as well.
    • The herbs contains fenugreek powder n seeds n more other ingredient for boosting milk.
    What are the ingredients used to make Sacred Tea for Nursing Mothers?
    Ingredients: Fenugreek Seeds, * Fenugreek Powder, * Fennel Seeds, * Fennel Powder * Anise Seeds, * Blessed Thistle, * Alfalfa Leaf. * 100% Certified Organic.

    However,  to increase breast milk supply, it is very important that 
    1. you MUST nurse your baby on demand, making sure,  you are positioning the baby on the breast  correctly. 
    2. You must follow a healthy diet, drink plenty of fresh water,  get plenty of rest, manage your stress levels and be patient. Breastfeeding is a learning experience for mom and baby. 
    3. To guarantee a successful breastfeeding experience, it is recommended for you to exclusively breastfeed your baby on demand for the first few weeks, right after birth. 

    Here is some basic information to remember:
     
    Step 1- Breastfeed your baby on demand;  
    • to be really patient and consistent, especially within the first few weeks.  
    • Milk supply is dynamic. It follows the law of supply and demand.
    • The more frequently and effectively a baby breastfeed, the more milk the mother's breasts produce. 
    • Sometimes for new moms, not understanding their baby's behavior can lead mothers to think they don't have enough milk even though they actually do.

    Step 2- Make sure the baby is latching on correctly and vigorously. 
    •  If your baby gets sleepy on the breast, try to gently pinch her cheeks, or tickle her feet. if she get sleepy, remove her from the breast and put her to latch again, making sure she have the entire nipple on her mouth and her lips covers most of your aureole. Remember her jaw needs to be doing the work, not her checks. Place your finger on her throat to make sure she is swallowing.

    Step 3- Remember to drink plenty of water! 
    • at least 1.5 liters of water a day. Buy yourself a plastic cup with straw have it close to you and drink ships of it all the time. Drinking plenty of water is very important.

    Step 4- Nutrition is very important as well remember this. 
    • Try to have a diet rich in whole foods. Eat whole grains, as is wild rice, brown rice, quinoa (very important grain) oats, and amaranth. 
    • Eat fish especially salmon and if you can many avocados, very rich in omega-3 and omega-6 fatty acids. 
    • Eat roasted chicken and make sure to eat the skin as this has rich nutrients that can help you to increment the milk supply. 
    • Try to have snacks during your meals. Eat seeds, nuts, and hummus with crackers, energy bars, and fresh fruit.

    Step 5- Try to control your stress levels 
    • remember that stress is the worst enemy of a breastfeeding woman. Stress can actually be a factor in decreasing the production of milk supply.

    Step 6- Forget about schedules for the first few weeks/months 
    • try to get some rest. Sleep when the baby sleep and get as many naps as you can. Sleep deprivation ca be another factor altogether with stress that can influence your ability to produce more or less milk supply.

    Step 7- Drink Sacred Tea for Nursing Mothers if you need to 
    • increase your milk supply. 
    • This herbal formula is made with 100% certified organic ingredients, is very concentrated, and can increase your milk supply within hours of use*.

    WHY CHOOSE SACRED TEA?

    1 -  100% CERTIFIED ORGANIC USDA
    Every single herb used in the creation of our formula is 100% certified organic, which most brands are not.

    2 - SUPER CONCENTRATED FORMULA
    Sacred Tea for Nursing Mothers is a very unique, innovative herbal formula super concentrated that can greatly help women to increase their milk supply very fast.

    3 - SATISFIED CUSTOMERS FROM ALL AROUND THE WORD
     
    Many clients all around the world that after using other brands have come to us in desperation and found out that by using our product they were able to see satisfactory results very quickly.

    4 - REAL TESTIMONIALS
    Huge amount of testimonials and success stories letters sent on a daily basics. As you can see more websites have just a couple of testimonials or none at all. All our testimonials are real.

    5 -
    100% POSITIVE FEEDBACK
    Have a 100% positive feedback customers. To this day and after selling thousands of tea bags,  NEVER received a negative testimonial or a request for a refund for unsatisfied customer. 

    6 - UNRIVALLED OF PURITY AND QUALITY

    All herbs comes from the most reputable and exceptional agricultors. Their standards of quality in the growing of their herbs and seeds is of unrivalled in its levels of purity.

    7 - SUPPORTING WOMEN

    Most important, is a family based business run by women only.

    8 - 100% UNCONDITIONAL SATISFACTION GUARANTEED 
    100% customer service satisfaction.
     
    Most importantly, is to trust your body, have patience and if you think you need it .
    Question: regarding for how long a woman can drink Sacred Tea for Nursing Mothers.  

    Response:

    Sacred Tea for Nursing Mothers is a dietary supplement taken in the form of an herbal tea that can help mothers that are looking to increase their milk production, in two ways.  

    * One -
    For those who are experiencing low milk supply, and want to increase breast milk, and  
    * Two - for those who work full or part time and cannot nurse the baby on demand any more. In this last case, the formula not only will help you to increase your milk supply, but will be helpful in making sure that at least you won't decrease completely, keeping enough for the baby to breastfeed, the few times a day, you can nurse him.    

    Sacred Tea for Nursing Mothers is so powerful, that many women only need to take it for a few weeks, even just a few days. However, many mothers continue drinking the tea, even when the milk supply is not an issue any longer, because of its many health benefits. 
     

    I want to remind you, that Sacred Tea for Nursing mothers, have specific ingredients  that not only successfully help mothers to increase their milk supply within days, but can as well  protect both, mom and baby’s digestive systems from common stomach upset, indigestion, constipation and gas. Besides, it has a great taste and have been proven to be safe for Mom and Baby, by hundreds of satisfied breastfeeding mothers!.  

    So yes, you can prolong drinking the tea. Many women drink the tea after they reach satisfactory results, because it is many other wonderful health and nutritional properties. I have clients that drink the tea for as long as they do breastfeed their precious babies!  

    If you initially purchased the tea with the goal of increasing your breast milk supply, once you reach satisfactory results, you can stop drinking it; or you can continue drinking Sacred Tea for Nursing Mothers for as long as you choose to nurse your baby. The decision is yours, but if it feels good and does works for you, why not?  
     I've personally tried everything I can but still can't increase my supply until I tried this. Really amazed how it really helps. And now I'm no longer worried for low supply even if one day my supply drops again , I will start taking the tea once again. Now my supply was more than enough so I stop taking already.

    INSTRUCTIONS GUIDE ON PREPARE THE TEA

    For making per cup

    1. Put into a pot with two cups of boiling water and add one tablespoon of herbs.

    2.Cover the pot, turn the fire to very low and let the herbs shimmer for about 15 minutes.

    3. Strain the herbs and pour the liquid into a large cup of tea.

    This alternative is for those who want to make one cup of tea at the time.


    For making a Pot

    1.Put one liter and a half of water to boil, pour three and a half Tbsp of our tea into the pot.

    2.Turn the fire down and let it shimmer for about 20 minutes.

    3.Strain and pour liquid into a big drinking jar or bottle.

    Use it through the day or take it with you to work, or on the go. Drink it hot or as an ice tea for the summer time. This alternative is for those who only want to make the tea once a day, and for those who work out side the home.


    NOTE TO TAKE :
    You should NOT REUSE the herbs more than once! when you make the tea as recommended the herbs are shimmered for about 15/20 minutes, this will release all the essential nutrients in the water and make the tea very concentrated. When you heat the herbs over and over, the tea will change it's properties and the taste will become a bit bitter.


    Note: Recommended to drink at least 3 times of Sacred Tea per day until your milk supply increases. ( Max 4 times a day ) You can reduce to 2 cups a day, then to once if your supply stablished. You may continue to drink until you reach your satisified level or as long as you continues to nurse.


     Things that affect breastfeeding:
    1. Smoking
    2. Ginseng; is gd for health and body but bad for milk supply. (chinese medical way)
    3. STRESS!
    4. Not enough resting (milk supply produce when u are relax)
    5. Not drinking enough of milk.
    6. Less blood. (eg: menstruation/hormonal changes DO affect milk supply)
    For Any Question: Can visit www.kellymom.com for more info or www.sacredtea.weebly.com for more info about the sacred tea/ordering of sacred tea.

    Monday, February 28, 2011

    My birth story!

    Baby Eden let me wait so long.. Still don't have any intention of coming out at all. No contractions, no pain, no bleed , no nothing. And finally on the 5th of Jan went back visit Doc, taken CTG and he agreed to for me to induce. Arrange to admit hospital after 12am. Went to eat my fav steamboat 鲜得来 with mil and hubby's brothers and their wife/gf at Bukit Timah after visiting Doc at Beauty World Plaza.

    Went home at 10pm plus for the last bath and shampoo! 11.30pm we all ready to head set off to Mount Alvernia.



    Admission
    Reached there took some pics outside the last time with my big tummy before I went in the delivery suite to do my admission with hubby.

    Reached the delivery suite,Hubby go do all the admissions info and the nurse asked me take off all my clothes and undergarments change into the delivery suit and she started by pumping the Fleet (for constipated) into my asshole to make me poo all food out. After a few mins, very fast, I am ready rush to toilet to let off. There goes! All the steamboat I ate just gone! -.-"

    When I'm ready, she put the CTG (to test baby's heart beat and mommy's contractions) on my tummy. 12am plus, Dr came and see I'm only dilated 1cm. Then he put the pills for the cervix muscle to soften and to dilate more. After telling me all the info that I need to know, he asked me to take a rest now for tml's push, wish me gd luck and see me tml.

    All alone in the room waiting for hubby and the admission things is taking very long time as the queue is very long. I'm alone in the suite , I can hear the lady next door is pushing time to time makes me so nervous. I keep going toilet and because it's a shared toilet, next door I heard already next door change 2 labors mommies give birth to their girls. After hubby is back, we chatted for some time and start to rest early. Throughout the night, don't know is I'm too nervous or what, I can't really sleep. Keep tossing and turning, sleep and awake in between every few mins to a hr. The lower back is aching damn badly. Turn which side also dont feel soothe. The nurses keep coming in to check on the CTG. Take out put back, take out put back when I can finally sleep. Feel kinda irritated thou.

    CTG machine.





    Burst water bag + put drip
    Til around morning 9am Dr came and check on me. I'm only 2 cm dilated! ZZzz. But I feel nth throughout the whole night just abit itchy down there. Then after that he make burst my water bag and start to put me on the drip. He injected something in and told me it's something like aesthetic. To prevent bacteria infection after the water bag burst cause after it burst it's directly contact with the surrounding air. He told me he estimated the time I'll be ready for labor at 3pm on so he'll be back at around 3pm after he close his clinic so if anything the nurses in charge will inform him.


    Awhile later, a nurse came to check on my contractions and then she injected another medicine in my drip, she said it was to speed up the dilating of the cervix and I might start to feel more contractions pain after injecting. Hubby was by my side throughout the whole process holding my hands and talk to me constantly. Checking me whether I need anything or some water. He even caught a cold thou with his jacket on. While acc me the whole night and he dint have much rest as I keep waking up and he's worry so he's having light sleep throughout so he could cater to my help in anytime. 
    Thanks Hubby!! I love you so much!

    Contractions starts to come
    By 9.30am, I started to feel the contractions pain. As time goes on, it's getting more n more painful. My lower back is very aching. I can feel the pressure it's like pressing down my lower back. The feeling is like gravity is holding your upper body and pulling the lower back downwards.No matter how I lie and position myself, I just can't find a soothing position. In my mind,I told myself, I'm not gonna consider taking epidural. I'm gonna stay strong! Others can do it, so can I. I gonna take it slow. Try to relax myself to let the cervix open more faster. I tahan til around 12pm plus, the pain is getting more and more unbearable. The nurse came to check on my contractions on and off and she asked me whether I need to sniff the laughing gas. She told me it takes 2-3 hrs to actually have the effects so maybe I can consider take it early. So I agreed. She told me to keep sniff it once the contractions come, don't stop cause the effect fades away very soon if I stop sniffing it. When contractions came, I just do what she mentioned, keep sniffing. Starting my hubby asked me "How u feeling baby? Got any effect anot? Still pain? Will 'seh' anot?" I replied " Eh.. Like nothing leh. No effect leh!" Then my hubby laughs. After few times when contractions come again more n more pain. I thought no effect so I just keep sniffing like no body business. In-out in-out very fast motion. Suddenly the feel come liao! I super 'seh'! I hold my hubby's hands and say " Oh my! Wooooo.... Bi, I'm floating now! Feel so high and 'seh' sia!! Help me!! 我头皮发麻!! 救命啊!" Then I keep laughing non stop. Hubby keep laughing at me. -.- Nurse came and asked me whether I opt for epidural and we said no, and that was the last time I hear epidural this word.

    Contractions getting strong even with laughing gas
    I keep looking at the time, Its getting more pain and comes fast. Til I can't stop sniffing the laughing gas. Sniff til I like intoxicated lidat. Sniff til I feel like a drug addict. My whole body is shaking non stop, feeling restless,keep sweating cold sweat and cannot even open my eyes. I can feel my eyes is like keep '翻白眼' when sniffing. Hubby see already very heart pain. Keep hold my hands tightly and throughout the whole process taking tissue put water to wet my lips to prevent my lips getting too dry and also wiping my sweat off my forehead. He constantly encouraged me, asking me to hang on. Reminding me,soon all these 10 mths pregnancy is coming to a end and we will see our cute little baby soon. Because of his encouraging words, makes me hang on and I told myself, unless I really can't take it, if not I wont opt for epidural! Epidural is my last last last option and I will drag my patience overcome the contractions. And when contractions come , I'm too busying enduring it than to think there's still epidural this thing.

    Aesthetic in thigh
    Around 1pm, really cannot take it so the nurse ask whether I want to inject aesthetic in my thigh, I agreed. After few mins, I feel so dizzy and nauseous wanting to puke. Lucky nurse has already prepare a holder for my hubby to hold when I'm gonna puke. After puke, I felt relieved a little and I fell asleep before the contractions come again. Continuing keep sniffing the laughing gas even after the thigh injection whenever contractions comes on and off. Til around 2pm plus , Dr came and check on my cervix, it's already open to 8cm! Gd gracious! I was relieved to hear that. Hubby still encouraging me constantly non stop. Dr said wait awhile more, asked the nurses to prepare all the things ready for labor, he went for a short coffee break then come back and he get himself change into surgical suite. After awhile Dr check my cervix again and it's 9.5-10cm dilated already! Wee! However, he said but baby's head still on top nv come down to the birth canal! -.-" zzz Sian lor after I hear this! Dr then said prepare to push. Inform the baby Dr Simon Ng to come.We'll try see how. After several times of pushing, I'm exhausted cause I trying to force myself keep pushing non stop continuously and the contractions also keep makes me keep wanna push. Like what few mommies (kim & step)  had mentioned, a very very big shit coming out but stuck there, u will keep want to 'gek' without controlling. Like constipated lidat. Damn "gao wei". Then hubby said " Mei mei jia you!! I saw Eden 'car car' outside already which means our Eden is coming out! Keep pushing!! Jiayou!" Then he showed me the 'car car' photo he took outside the suite. =D

    Few sessions of several pushing
    Again, several times pushing, Dr shaked his head then said hard la. He said the push is very good, he can see the head but once I breathe in for oxygen, Baby's head went deep in again. ZzzzZ. Then Dr told me, "I only help you deliver, the rest must rely on you already. You are young, if can try your best to push out naturally don't cesarean. If this situation continues, Im afraid baby's heartbeat will gets weak and by then must cesarean already. " This is considered a hard labor, I'm afraid you may need cesarean. I heard cesarean this word, I keep pushing hard with all my might when the contractions come..Dr uses the vacuum to suck Eden's head when I try to push. Struggling myself to step on the pedals and holding my thighs up to push hard , with the aid of 2 nurses pushing my tummy downwards from each side and hubby holding my hands tightly and my back up to 45 degrees incline pushing down my tummy. The 2 nurses also keep encourage me telling me "You're doing very good. Such a clever girl know how to control the pushing herself, keep going, keep going! Clever girl! We will help you natural birth, don't cesarean." and they pushing down real hard on my tummy.

    Finally, our fruit of love
    Finally, on 6/1/11, at 4.1+ pm, weighing 3.12kg, head circumferences 34.5cm,length 51cm, baby Eden is out with a slip of his body with a total labor hours of 7 hrs (From the moment water bag is burst til birth).The end of feeling constipated. Instantly I saw my tummy went down and Eden is placed on top of my boobs. Looking at him, I forgot every pain. Even after that Dr doing the washing and sewing, I dont feel much pain. I was distracted by keep looking at Eden, thinking he's the little one who has developed from a small little membrane to who he become now. The one who grows inside me for the past 10 months! He's our son! Our little 爱的结晶! For that moment, I felt so happiness, so blissful... So noble.. so brave! Giving birth to him is the bravest thing I ever did in my life! Hubby kissed me on my cheeks and said " baby,辛苦你了baby!我爱你和我们的儿子!" then he went taking photos of every details of Eden's birth.


    Dr said to me: "哇!年轻就是好!你很厉害!很能推!"

    And to my hubby "很佩服你的老婆!很厉害推!她这样算难产了!可是她可以! 换别人很多都开刀了!"

    Nurse: " Clever girl! Very brave! You last time got keep going gym or exercise is it? You very strong! push very well, good job mommy! " Cause after labor I can move myself well from the labor bed to another bed without much help and I look active after labor.

    And after that I was pushed to my ward at St.Raphael ward. Mil and hubby's brother is already outside waiting for me and Eden!
    SO HAPPY













    HAHA Don't remind me that I look very horrible and fat! I know!! LOL!

    Monday, February 07, 2011

    Happy Chinese New Year!





    Chu yi.
    Our First Little Family CNY!
    Cheeky boy don't want look into the camera!








    My little mini mickey mouse!
    Take picture! *cheese*




     
    One thing I dislike is I always can't find a proper clothes to fit on those enlarge saggy boobs! Sian! Super saggy after I start bf-ing.






     He's struggling for milk again ! -.-" That explains why all the photos are in this kind of face. zzz

    This yr cny very sian. No more Ang bao-s take yet still must give ang bao. Only left Eden's ang bao-s.

    2 exchange 1, super bo hua but I still love this cny because we've got Sweetheart Eden!


    Chu er dint go many place so nv take pics.
     Only took Eden.

    Smiling when sleeping! :D



    Spill out his tutu.